hahahahah... I'm on mc orh! 4 days of mc till the next book in. So practically i have 5 1/2 days out of camp including weekends. Cool or what. Thanks for the guy who had h1n1. Oh n, no mc without a valid reason right. I was down with a damn cough which is kind of irritating to me. Can't sleep well at night and keep waking up like every hour. Really irritating I tell you. Got tired of coughing and I went to report sick on Tuesday and they gave us mc straight away. Anyway, theres not much training for these week since we participated in passing out ceremony.

Haizzzzzz.. NS... Got no comments for NS. I wish for an OOC (out of course) but wishes are turned down. Now they are considering the OOC's and I hope they allow us to do so. I can't deny the fact that its a good course that I'm in now. Higher rank and higher pay (highest pay for NSF). BUT! It may not be a good course for me. I have planned for other avenues and I still wanted to follow that plan that I've set. For now, theres nothing I could do unless I could knock on prime minister door and complain about the NS system which I couldn't afford to do so in todays world. Enough said. I just continue where I left.

And to you. My feelings for you have became stronger now. I just don't know why. Maybe feeling are meant to be unexplainable. Even tho its our 5th month, it feels like just yesterday that we got together. All those times that we spend together will never get enough for me. Our ups and down will always be remembered and I admit there were times that words just flew off my mouth without any thoughts for it. Its just me, sometimes my jokes speared into your heart but I didn't really meant it. I know I cant be mean sometimes but my intentions are as pure as my feelings.

Recently, I'm having thoughts of us getting separated but I just can't help it but to see you smile and accompany throughout every nights. I thought I'm not the right person for you but you thought otherwise. Maybe I've been thinking too much. Maybe I had a lot of things in my mind. My problems escalated and I just don't know what to do to make my situation better. You know what I'm talking about right. On the other hand, I still couldn't believe in the fairy tale that I'm in. Which is to be in a relationship. Its been a great 5 months of relationship and hope it never ends. =) I just hope we can make it through this big obstacle and remain strong as ever.