book in orh!
Its been months since enlistment and the toughest training is yet to come. Its been quite an experience I shall say. Nobody loves national service. Especially the girlfriends. I don't even know what to do. I can never make her happy with me serving the nation.
I know you're having a tough times and you felt lonely at most of the nights. I told you that you could leave me if you want. I don't want you to feel lonely at times and I felt guilty for being this way. Sometimes my weekends will be burnt due to guard duty and it feels stupid that we can't spend time together for at least half the day during the whole week. I don't want you to feel lonely at times and I thought you could be happy with someone else. But you said No. You never want to leave me. You pleaded me not to mention that again. That has never crossed into your mind. You'll wait till my training days are over and working vocationally. Now I hope time will speed up.
Alot of things running thru my mind. From family stuff to NS stuff to my future and her. I was once taught by my bunk mate. If you come to a decision making. Think of what is the outcome, in terms of regret-ness. If I don't choose this choice, would I regret for not doing so? I'm not fully sure of this. Conclude for me.
Oh and dear please, I bet when you are reading this post of mine, you are using my laptop to do so. So don't give me excuses not to do your resume. Please do. I've downloaded for you some movies for your entertainment and songs to transfer. Go get a better job this time okay. =) Finger cross that I will not do guard duty next weekend. fcuk.
I know you're having a tough times and you felt lonely at most of the nights. I told you that you could leave me if you want. I don't want you to feel lonely at times and I felt guilty for being this way. Sometimes my weekends will be burnt due to guard duty and it feels stupid that we can't spend time together for at least half the day during the whole week. I don't want you to feel lonely at times and I thought you could be happy with someone else. But you said No. You never want to leave me. You pleaded me not to mention that again. That has never crossed into your mind. You'll wait till my training days are over and working vocationally. Now I hope time will speed up.
Alot of things running thru my mind. From family stuff to NS stuff to my future and her. I was once taught by my bunk mate. If you come to a decision making. Think of what is the outcome, in terms of regret-ness. If I don't choose this choice, would I regret for not doing so? I'm not fully sure of this. Conclude for me.
Oh and dear please, I bet when you are reading this post of mine, you are using my laptop to do so. So don't give me excuses not to do your resume. Please do. I've downloaded for you some movies for your entertainment and songs to transfer. Go get a better job this time okay. =) Finger cross that I will not do guard duty next weekend. fcuk.
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Sunday, July 5, 2009.
