Not ready, definitely
Time flies so fast while waiting for enlistment especially a week before enlistment. Everyone enlisting will be spending their time mostly with their love one, be it their family, friends or their partners. I can say that my time is up and no more slacking around anymore, ever. Now, lets face it. Life has to get back to reality. Time to think for the future and so forth. Do we really have to do this? I'm trying to enjoy every single second while it last. I admit, I hate to do this. It makes me clueless what's best and what's right for me.
I'll be in camp and book in and out every week. Some say its a gateway for our unpredictable crazy world. We'll get a secured monthly pay (allowance, they call it) for the next two years and then, we are on our own. Two years could be a runaway from this economy crisis. With competitive job employment these days, two years could be what we need to have a better planned career. That's what I thought of. Unlike for me, two years is not what I was asked for. Five years, yes FIVE freaking years serving the nation. I don't know how I'm going to cope with that. I seriously don't know.
I just don't know whether I NEED to sign on. I emphasis the word 'Need'. Some issues that requires me to do so but I'm not prepared to do so. I want to continue studying and upgrade my education and skill but I don't want to drag it any longer like five more years then I start studying. I already know what I want to study and I've done a minor research on the area. I want to get it quick. Get a degree, a good job with a good pay and settle down early. I got a plan but its always interrupted and I'm scared to drag it any longer. Cause I know if I drag sooner or later, I won't have much time left. Yes, I'm thinking of that. I fear for that and it's my biggest fear of all time. Honestly, I've been thinking about it ever since during my secondary school days. We just don't know when it's coming. Only Allah knows.
Many question arises yet little answers known
I'll be in camp and book in and out every week. Some say its a gateway for our unpredictable crazy world. We'll get a secured monthly pay (allowance, they call it) for the next two years and then, we are on our own. Two years could be a runaway from this economy crisis. With competitive job employment these days, two years could be what we need to have a better planned career. That's what I thought of. Unlike for me, two years is not what I was asked for. Five years, yes FIVE freaking years serving the nation. I don't know how I'm going to cope with that. I seriously don't know.
I just don't know whether I NEED to sign on. I emphasis the word 'Need'. Some issues that requires me to do so but I'm not prepared to do so. I want to continue studying and upgrade my education and skill but I don't want to drag it any longer like five more years then I start studying. I already know what I want to study and I've done a minor research on the area. I want to get it quick. Get a degree, a good job with a good pay and settle down early. I got a plan but its always interrupted and I'm scared to drag it any longer. Cause I know if I drag sooner or later, I won't have much time left. Yes, I'm thinking of that. I fear for that and it's my biggest fear of all time. Honestly, I've been thinking about it ever since during my secondary school days. We just don't know when it's coming. Only Allah knows.
Many question arises yet little answers known
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Sunday, June 7, 2009.
