please mind my words this time
This post will be a big rant from me. Im letting it all out regarding my major project. Im sorry I made a mistake in continuing my work in my company. I shouldn’t have choosen that path. All I want is to get away from programming and I thought this is the solution to it but it proved me wrong. I still had to do programming here and how I wish I had a partner to work with me. I started to learn my style of working. I don’t do work alone. I am a team player. Working in a team, collaborate with people’s idea and plan to make things will go as plan. This is how I work. Now the situation is getting intense. Like you people know. I MUST complete a task by Friday and if I don’t, I’m not going to graduate on time. Yah and I’m already leaning towards that path and preparing for the worst. I’m left with 1 day to complete a work? Impossible I tell you.
I’ve done my phucking best of the best in completing it. Can someone please suggest me what to do? Or how to complete it with 1 day left? With no guidance, no help, no knowledge on it. Asking my colleagues around and my friends are as good as nothing. Sheesh, they assigned to do this but they don’t even know a phucking way to do. And whats more, when I need help from them, they said, they cannot help. It is for my own good. A sense of achievement when I complete it. Yeah my own phucking good. All I want is to graduate on time and moving on to my next journey which is my NS life. I don’t want to finish my NS in like 24 years? My career would be gone and need to work a lot harder to achieve my goals. I’ve tried asking my reliable friend for the help but he seems too busy with his stuff. Its really unfair for me. First of all, no help. Even though there are answers in the internet, but it seems different results from what they are doing. Secondly, I’m all alone. A-L-O-N-E. Phucking alone.
I understand they need this task to be up but they don’t even know how it works and they expected me to complete it? Please, I need some life. I’ve been working on troubleshooting this task for weeks and nothing seems to be working. I’ve been sleeping at least 2am in the morning almost every night trying to figure out what is the phucking problem. And the back of my head is getting more pain by each day. I think this is due to stress.
I’m juggling a number of work here and they want that exact work to be done. And what’s more, the school is on the same side as my company. “I’m giving you a chance to complete it by end of this month to make sure you graduate on time” Oh phuck them. I feel isolated with no one to turn to (in terms of the phucking task) I’m all alone here with burdens on my shoulder.
I know I cannot easily give up. But there is such thing in life My will is still there, to fight till the very end. It’s not over till its over. But 1 day to fight for my future can be quite immense and I’m starting to lose my breath over it. I’m a victim for my own actions. Now, I shall rely on God for my next step. I hope he won’t disappoint me this time.
I’ve done my phucking best of the best in completing it. Can someone please suggest me what to do? Or how to complete it with 1 day left? With no guidance, no help, no knowledge on it. Asking my colleagues around and my friends are as good as nothing. Sheesh, they assigned to do this but they don’t even know a phucking way to do. And whats more, when I need help from them, they said, they cannot help. It is for my own good. A sense of achievement when I complete it. Yeah my own phucking good. All I want is to graduate on time and moving on to my next journey which is my NS life. I don’t want to finish my NS in like 24 years? My career would be gone and need to work a lot harder to achieve my goals. I’ve tried asking my reliable friend for the help but he seems too busy with his stuff. Its really unfair for me. First of all, no help. Even though there are answers in the internet, but it seems different results from what they are doing. Secondly, I’m all alone. A-L-O-N-E. Phucking alone.
I understand they need this task to be up but they don’t even know how it works and they expected me to complete it? Please, I need some life. I’ve been working on troubleshooting this task for weeks and nothing seems to be working. I’ve been sleeping at least 2am in the morning almost every night trying to figure out what is the phucking problem. And the back of my head is getting more pain by each day. I think this is due to stress.
I’m juggling a number of work here and they want that exact work to be done. And what’s more, the school is on the same side as my company. “I’m giving you a chance to complete it by end of this month to make sure you graduate on time” Oh phuck them. I feel isolated with no one to turn to (in terms of the phucking task) I’m all alone here with burdens on my shoulder.
I know I cannot easily give up. But there is such thing in life My will is still there, to fight till the very end. It’s not over till its over. But 1 day to fight for my future can be quite immense and I’m starting to lose my breath over it. I’m a victim for my own actions. Now, I shall rely on God for my next step. I hope he won’t disappoint me this time.
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Thursday, February 26, 2009.
